They both are alike brothers

My brother sent me some pictures of my nephew and I showed them to Thomas. He told me that's him at first time he saw those pictures, then I laughed and told him that's Kaiyuan, he replied to me : mom, you tricked me. I guess they both are really alike somehow. Thomas always confused with his pictures and his cousin's.

Gospel

I had this friend F, he is really smart guy, one time I was trying to ask him if he was willing to know God, he told me he was really waiting for the right moment and waiting for God's calling. Maybe I shouldn't push hard, everything has it's timing , everything will be in God's will and in God's timing. I really put him in my prayers and one day he can open his heart to Heavenly Father and rejoice with Him.

Wisdom

We had bible study tonight, talking about Wisdom, what's wisdom, it's coming from Heavenly Father, it's pure, humble, gentle and peace-loving. Envy, selfless are wisdom from the earth and make us separated with God.

Rely on God not yourself

Isaiah 50:11, 'But now, all you who light fires and provide yourselves with flaming torches, go, walk in the light of your fires and of the torches you have set ablaze. This is what you shall receive from my hand: You will lie down in torment.'

What it means that when we are in darkness the temptation is to find a way without trusting in the Lord and relying upon Him. Instead of letting Him help us out, we try to help ourselves out. We seek the light of nature, and get the advice of our friends. We try the conclusion of our reason, and might almost be tempted to accept a way of deliverance which would not be of God at all.
So what we do, Beloved, do not try to get out of a dark place, except in God's time and in God's way. The time of trouble is meant to teach you lessons that you sorely need.
Premature deliverance may frustrate God's work of grace in your life. Just commit the whole situation to Him. Be willing to abide in darkness so long as you have His presence. Remember that it is better to walk in the dark with God than to walk alone in the light.

Kid will grow up.

This morning Thomas asked me if we could get his room set up so he could sleep in his room. I told him that we're glad to have his room setup and decrated. I think he's ready for his own room. This summer we need to do some home improvment for his room with his help. Hope he'll love it.

My Father - 1

April is coming, in my hometown, this is the time to remember your lost loved ones. My sister-in-law sent me email they'd going to my father's birthplace to see my parents' memorial. My father passed away at Thanksgiving day of 1996, i was not in his funeral. It's more than 10 yrs. I tried not to look back, but somehow i always want to write something to remember him. A few years ago I didn't have the courage to do that, it's still hurt so much. After several years of struggling to accept the fact, I just put everything of my father in my heart deeply and never think i could look back and I was so afraid of not going on my normal life... He was such a wonderful man. He was my hero in all my life - I realized this after I lost him.

Thomas started to learn piano since last month, he seems like it and good at it. Teacher said he was doing fine and now he can play some simple notes and I learn it at the same time , we both really enjoy it. He also loves all kinds of music, he can song a lots of songs, he loves Johnny Cash, backstreet boys, Madonna, and some of country music, one of his favorite is jazz - seems get this from me. I just don't want to push hard for him as long as he has fun and learn it for his own good. Later on i really hope he can enjoy himself.

My childhood - 1

When i was a little kid, i was kind of rebellious. Maybe I was just trying to get attention because i was the second child of family. I have a older brother and younger brother. I remember that when i was little i followed my grandmother everywhere, not very close to my mom. At middle of semester, my grandmother wanted to visit her hometown, we didn't even hesitate to ask school to take off so i could go with my grandmother. She was a smart lady, outgoing and a lots of sense of humor. On the other hand, she's also very determinded and tough to deal with. My mom could not compete with her. By the time I was the junior high, i realized that mom had been mistreated in the family and i felt some anger and my mom never said anything against my grandmother, that's the time i decided to stand up to fight for my mom... from that time i've been the bad person in the whole family for a long time.

First Time

This is the first i really want to put words here just for myself ,maybe my friend later, recently happened to touch with a old friend from high school and my mind just wonder around and all memories are coming back to me, bad and good. Most of it are the time I spent with my parents a long time ago.