Middle age for me it should be the starting point to enjoy family and life. But most of it, not true. I've seen lots of people around me , including myself, struggling at some point. Still it should not be the end of world.
Ping has been struggling all those year, from what I've seen , I think she is too ambitious. I consider she is my best friend since I got in the state. She treats me like her own sister too. We were roommate when I first arrived this country. She came here a year earlier than I did.
She is a hard worker, smart, and very generous. She helps lots of friends financially and spiritually. We all studied here first and then got job and then got family with children, I felt like we should enjoy our life... for me I always adjust my 'goal' and I think I should set my limit for material things, you can not force yourself work like a machine, especially being a mom. Somehow you have to sacrifice for your family and child. Ping disagreed with me about that.
Ping seems want to do thing perfectly. And she is trying to do perfectly both at work and home. I told her that it was impossible for me and I doubt if anybody could do that. I feel she is so stubborn. It's hard for her to change her mind even it's impossible. She always pushes herself beyond limit, I remind her all the time that don't do that to your own daughter.
Indeed, human is so insignificant in the huge universal. Our living year on earth is so short. Why we have to fight over those impossible things ? God created us as a purpose, everything good comes from Him, we have to rely on Him, not ourselves. We do the best we can, let God worries about Miracles and only Him made impossible be possible. So why worry about tomorrow ? Enjoy our life and be happy and grateful.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Bully Kid
Thomas seems upset in the school for the last two days. In the morning he kept asking me if he could stay home, instead of going school.
He used to love going school. This is the first time. I asked him why. He told me that he almost cried during nap time and missed me. I know there must be some reasons. And then he told me that one of boys name Kyle said something to him that he shouldn't.
I noticed that summer school in his class most of them are boys who are a little bit older than he is. Teacher in summer school is different than those in school year, maybe more relaxed and boys are tend to be fighting over things, sometime bully to each other.
I told Thomas that Kyle should say that to him and I would talk to teacher and that boy tomorrow morning.
He used to love going school. This is the first time. I asked him why. He told me that he almost cried during nap time and missed me. I know there must be some reasons. And then he told me that one of boys name Kyle said something to him that he shouldn't.
I noticed that summer school in his class most of them are boys who are a little bit older than he is. Teacher in summer school is different than those in school year, maybe more relaxed and boys are tend to be fighting over things, sometime bully to each other.
I told Thomas that Kyle should say that to him and I would talk to teacher and that boy tomorrow morning.
Rain
It's been raining on and off for last two months, especially for the last two days, I feel like it's not in Dallas, somewhere else, maybe in Seattle ?
Normally it'll dry and hot during this season, but abundant rain this year washes out everything and keeps everything clean and green. Feel like not even in summer. Weather here is getting better and better year by year. It's a real blessing.
Normally it'll dry and hot during this season, but abundant rain this year washes out everything and keeps everything clean and green. Feel like not even in summer. Weather here is getting better and better year by year. It's a real blessing.
Monday, June 25, 2007
We Are Human Beings
My good friend Ping called me this afternoon, she was really upset and told me about her worried about her daughter. Her daughter was diagnosed as learning disability recently. She could not accept the fact because Ping was a straight A student and she has an awesome career.
We've been talking about her daughter a lot, I don't know how to comfort or help her but I think Ping did the best to help her daughter. There is limitation of human beings, if you did the best you could and still couldn't make the goal, then you have to accept the fact.
I know her feelings - desperate and defeated... but I believe God created everyone of us to have a special purpose, you don't have to be the same or good grades or career to live in happy life.
If you feel you can not do anything to change your situation, just pray... whatever the outcome is, you have to accept it.
We've been talking about her daughter a lot, I don't know how to comfort or help her but I think Ping did the best to help her daughter. There is limitation of human beings, if you did the best you could and still couldn't make the goal, then you have to accept the fact.
I know her feelings - desperate and defeated... but I believe God created everyone of us to have a special purpose, you don't have to be the same or good grades or career to live in happy life.
If you feel you can not do anything to change your situation, just pray... whatever the outcome is, you have to accept it.
Can You Imagine This ?
All streets are green, grass is blue; sky is white, clouds are red, leafs are purple; trucks are gray, cars are black and white. - Thomas told me yesterday that he wished the world looked like this.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Hero - My Father - Continue...
My dad was a civic engineer and he always was in the field and wore the same uniform with workers. He made good relationship with workers, I heard that he never acted arrogant or impolite to the workers like some of the engineers during that time.
One day when I was in the elementary school, my dad came home late with his uniform full of blood and everybody was in shock. Finally we learned he was not the one got hurt, he actually saved a worker's life that night. I was scared to look at his tired face and blooded uniform. Late afternoon that day, he was on the field with a lots of workers and constructing a project, suddenly a hook from the heavy crank in the air dropped right into a worker's head, my father rushed to him and used some clothing and his hands to cover his head all the way to the hospital. I didn't know how my father did it, but later on doctors said that person could be dead if my father didn't do that or a little late.
That worker later on insisted on calling my grandma as his god-mother, and he considered my father as his big brother and his family became our most frequently visiting guests in our house until both my parents passed away. I called him Uncle since then. He got 5 children. And he was the only one to bring money to home at that time.
Uncle was always full of tears when he told us about that fatal accident and he told me and my brothers that my dad gave his life back, he said not everyone could do that because it's too scary at scene.
My dad never told us the details, later on I heard some of them from his friends who worked with him at that time. He said he didn't think much at that moment and just did it. So I always think my dad was a hero to me.
One day when I was in the elementary school, my dad came home late with his uniform full of blood and everybody was in shock. Finally we learned he was not the one got hurt, he actually saved a worker's life that night. I was scared to look at his tired face and blooded uniform. Late afternoon that day, he was on the field with a lots of workers and constructing a project, suddenly a hook from the heavy crank in the air dropped right into a worker's head, my father rushed to him and used some clothing and his hands to cover his head all the way to the hospital. I didn't know how my father did it, but later on doctors said that person could be dead if my father didn't do that or a little late.
That worker later on insisted on calling my grandma as his god-mother, and he considered my father as his big brother and his family became our most frequently visiting guests in our house until both my parents passed away. I called him Uncle since then. He got 5 children. And he was the only one to bring money to home at that time.
Uncle was always full of tears when he told us about that fatal accident and he told me and my brothers that my dad gave his life back, he said not everyone could do that because it's too scary at scene.
My dad never told us the details, later on I heard some of them from his friends who worked with him at that time. He said he didn't think much at that moment and just did it. So I always think my dad was a hero to me.
About Jie
Jie is my best friend since we were in elementary school. We were been in the same class in elementary and junior high school.
We both were the 'good-grade' students. And we were together all the time. She were very active and liked to talk more than I did.
During elementary school , after class she normally went with me to our home do homework together and then we went out playing until dark, sometime stayed in our house until her sister came to pick her up. Her parent were very strict parents but if they heard that she was in our house they didn't say anything, they trusted my grandmother. They knew that we should be OK in our house. She knows all family members and even now she is comfortable like home whenever she goes to my brothers' houses.
She was very good at literature. She was the 'leader' for that subject in junior high. She has been very good at her writing. On the day my father passed away which was November 28, 1996 (Thanksgiving Day that year) she wrote a letter to me after her attending my father's funeral and both me and Tony were so moved and she told me the fact and expressed her feelings very well. Tony is hard to be moved by anything, one time I joked with him 'you're senseless'. But by reading Jie's letter he thought that's the most touchy letter he has ever read so he suggested we put that letter into our safety box in the bank, it's still there. I am not good at writing , especially in English, but after reading her letter, I was sad but most of all, I felt encouraged and be proud of my father.
She was also good at science. She was smart and funny. I always think she had been poplar in the school. But she said it was not true.
She is very good at music, she is a good singer both in Chinese and English, I never could sing an English song well when I was in the school, but she was very good at, even now when we were talking over the phone, she could sing to me whenever we recalled a old song. She was trained in the music before.
She is also a dreamer. I would say a big dreamer. She always has ideas and full of thoughts, but sometime I warn her that too much brainstorming is not good.
We've been leaned on each other spiritually.
We both were the 'good-grade' students. And we were together all the time. She were very active and liked to talk more than I did.
During elementary school , after class she normally went with me to our home do homework together and then we went out playing until dark, sometime stayed in our house until her sister came to pick her up. Her parent were very strict parents but if they heard that she was in our house they didn't say anything, they trusted my grandmother. They knew that we should be OK in our house. She knows all family members and even now she is comfortable like home whenever she goes to my brothers' houses.
She was very good at literature. She was the 'leader' for that subject in junior high. She has been very good at her writing. On the day my father passed away which was November 28, 1996 (Thanksgiving Day that year) she wrote a letter to me after her attending my father's funeral and both me and Tony were so moved and she told me the fact and expressed her feelings very well. Tony is hard to be moved by anything, one time I joked with him 'you're senseless'. But by reading Jie's letter he thought that's the most touchy letter he has ever read so he suggested we put that letter into our safety box in the bank, it's still there. I am not good at writing , especially in English, but after reading her letter, I was sad but most of all, I felt encouraged and be proud of my father.
She was also good at science. She was smart and funny. I always think she had been poplar in the school. But she said it was not true.
She is very good at music, she is a good singer both in Chinese and English, I never could sing an English song well when I was in the school, but she was very good at, even now when we were talking over the phone, she could sing to me whenever we recalled a old song. She was trained in the music before.
She is also a dreamer. I would say a big dreamer. She always has ideas and full of thoughts, but sometime I warn her that too much brainstorming is not good.
We've been leaned on each other spiritually.
A Little Sweet Memory
I talked with my best friend Jie over the phone and a lots of old memories came up. I worked in a local restaurant for a short period of time when I was in school 13 years ago. The boss was a very nice lady came from HongKong, his husband was chief. They run a home business but their restaurant was very beautiful and popular. I only worked on weekend so I made good money to cover my tuition and living cost.
The couple were well-educated in England. The boss treated me very good she liked me a lot, and she always chatted with me when business was slow or before customers came in. She told me that she went to London to study when she was 18 years old and later on she met her husband there and got married and several later they came in the states, they had 2 sons and twin daughters and I met all of them during that time. Three of them were in the college and only the youngest son was with them at that time. She was a beautiful, elegant lady. She encouraged me of being alone studying in the foreign country. One time she told me that she didn't believe I came from mainland when she met me at first time. When I heard it I felt sweet with bitter. I heard some of stories about that. There were several reasons. I had worked almost 10 restaurants in the area from time to time, five of them which I would never forget about. But she was the only boss from HongKong I worked for.
During the daily chat she learned my birthday and on that day she gave a gift by my surprise. I was so moved. That's my second birthday after left home and didn't expect anybody give me a gift. Several month later I quited that job because I had to move on campus and I introduced one of my friends to fill in my shift but my friend told me she always missed me and wish me the best. Unfortunately , several years later when I came back, she sold out that restaurant.
I always remember her and appreciate the way she treated like a friend.
The couple were well-educated in England. The boss treated me very good she liked me a lot, and she always chatted with me when business was slow or before customers came in. She told me that she went to London to study when she was 18 years old and later on she met her husband there and got married and several later they came in the states, they had 2 sons and twin daughters and I met all of them during that time. Three of them were in the college and only the youngest son was with them at that time. She was a beautiful, elegant lady. She encouraged me of being alone studying in the foreign country. One time she told me that she didn't believe I came from mainland when she met me at first time. When I heard it I felt sweet with bitter. I heard some of stories about that. There were several reasons. I had worked almost 10 restaurants in the area from time to time, five of them which I would never forget about. But she was the only boss from HongKong I worked for.
During the daily chat she learned my birthday and on that day she gave a gift by my surprise. I was so moved. That's my second birthday after left home and didn't expect anybody give me a gift. Several month later I quited that job because I had to move on campus and I introduced one of my friends to fill in my shift but my friend told me she always missed me and wish me the best. Unfortunately , several years later when I came back, she sold out that restaurant.
I always remember her and appreciate the way she treated like a friend.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Hero - My Father
Actually there were lots of things I don't know about my dad. My older knows a lot. Last year I went back hometown, first night I got home, my older brother didn't let me sleep and we talked for whole night and I learned lots of things about our father. Some of them made me cried and some of them made me laughed. I told my older brother you should write that down for our dad.
But one thing I do remember about him....
But one thing I do remember about him....
Love Me Tender
Love me tender, love me sweet; never let me go.
You have made my life complete, and I love you so.
Love me tender, love me true; all my dreams fulfill.
For my darling, I love you and I always will.
Love me tender, love me long. take me to your heart.
For it's there that I belong, and we'll never part.
Love me tender, love me true; all my dreams fulfill.
For my darling, I love you, and I always will.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHJwqE5wdVc&mode=related&search=
You have made my life complete, and I love you so.
Love me tender, love me true; all my dreams fulfill.
For my darling, I love you and I always will.
Love me tender, love me long. take me to your heart.
For it's there that I belong, and we'll never part.
Love me tender, love me true; all my dreams fulfill.
For my darling, I love you, and I always will.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHJwqE5wdVc&mode=related&search=
Monday, June 18, 2007
My Expectation
My soul, wait silently for God alone, For my expectation is from Him (Psalm 62:5)
It's so true, you can not put any expectation to anybody, we, as human beings , have limitation and we are sinners.
He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. (Psalm 62:6)
One time my mom told me that no love was unconditional. I feel like only love from Heavenly Father is unconditional and endless.
Heavenly Father, You are the reason I am here and You are only my hope and desire.
It's so true, you can not put any expectation to anybody, we, as human beings , have limitation and we are sinners.
He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. (Psalm 62:6)
One time my mom told me that no love was unconditional. I feel like only love from Heavenly Father is unconditional and endless.
Heavenly Father, You are the reason I am here and You are only my hope and desire.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Teaching In Sunday School
I started to teach my son's class, pre-K in the church on Sundays this month. It has given me a lot of experience of how identify and accept the differences between boys and girls. Girls are easy to get them attentions and follow instructions. Boys are different, they like to challenge your authority and do things differently, but if you give them opportunities to help and be involved they would be awesome.
I found out that they all love Bible story times. But at the activity time I have to be very creative and spontaneous. Sometime I don't like the book activities, so this time I use my own idea to let them do special cards for their dads to show how much they love their daddies in this Fathers' day. They all made very good cards for their dads.
I found out that they all love Bible story times. But at the activity time I have to be very creative and spontaneous. Sometime I don't like the book activities, so this time I use my own idea to let them do special cards for their dads to show how much they love their daddies in this Fathers' day. They all made very good cards for their dads.
Missing Grandpa
Last night Thomas told me that he didn't want to go to Yellowstone on August, instead, he wanted to go back China with me to see his grandpa. He said ' I miss my grandpa' in Chinese. I was holding him and said to him " I know you're missing your grandpa and we're going back sometime next year. " He replied to me " That's too far away and it would take 3 airplanes to get there". Yes last August it really took 3 airplanes to get home and we were all exhausted. He doesn't speak Chinese at all, but he said he missed his grandpa in Chinese and really surprises me. I could tell he missed his grandpa so much. I still remember last year when we were in Beijing and his grandpa held his hands walking in front of us and that was one of greatest moment both for Thomas and his grandpa.
I was told that his grandpa , my father-in-law never had that kind of tender moment for his own sons, but all I've seen was his tender side and kindness. I really miss him too. I really wish Thomas could spend more time with him. He is 80 years old. Happy fathers' day for my father-in-law.
I was told that his grandpa , my father-in-law never had that kind of tender moment for his own sons, but all I've seen was his tender side and kindness. I really miss him too. I really wish Thomas could spend more time with him. He is 80 years old. Happy fathers' day for my father-in-law.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
'FAT' Father
I listened radio yesterday and it was saying that today's world there are lots of troubled kids because of lack of fathers' present at home. I believe it's true. FAT Father means Faithful, Available, and Tender father. Here is a little story to demonstrate. One day an exhausted father came home from work and his son asked him if they could go fish this weekend like he promised before. Then they went fishing on Saturday, but it's raining all day long and when they came back and mom asked dad how was the day and the dad said it's miserable day and didn't catch any fish, then mom told the dad that his son wrote this in his dairy - it's the best day in my life because my dad spent all day long with myself.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Above All
Here is the song 'Above All' from Micheal W. Smith.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7Sn5rV6oM0&mode=related&search=
Another one 'Breathe' from him :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oad8ov10AjY&mode=related&search=
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7Sn5rV6oM0&mode=related&search=
Another one 'Breathe' from him :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oad8ov10AjY&mode=related&search=
My Prayer To God
Lord, you have said in Your Word that whoever believes in You will have rivers of living water flowing from their heart (John 7:38). I believe in You, and I long for Your living water to flow in and through me today and every day that I’m alive. I invite Your Holy Spirit to fill me afresh right now. Just as a spring is constantly being renewed with fresh water so that it stays pure, I ask You to renew me in that same way today.
Your Word says that “the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groaning which cannot be uttered” (Romans 8:26). Lord, I realize I don’t know how to pray as I need to, nor as often as I want to, but I invite You, Holy Spirit, to pray through me. Help me in my weakness. Teach me the things I don’t know about You.
I am desperately aware of how much I need Your power to transform me and my circumstances. I don’t want to live an ineffective life. I want to live in the dynamic power of Your Spirit. I don’t want to be a spiritual underachiever. I want to be an overcomer. You paid a price for me so that I could be owned by You. Help me to live like it. You planed out a course for my life so that I could be defined by You. Help me to act like it. You made it possible for me to defeat my enemy. Help me not to forget it. You sent Your Holy Spirit so that I could live in power. Help me to fulfill that promise. You gave Your life for me because You loved me. Help me to do the same for You.
I put all my expectations in You, Lord. I repent of the times I have expected other people or other things to meet my needs when I should have been looking to You. I know that You are the only one who can complete me because You are everything I need. All that I have ever wanted in my life can be found in You. Help me to remember to live not in my own strength, but by the power of Your Spirit living in me. Forgive me for the times I have forgotten to do that. Enable me to grow in the things of Your kingdom so that I can become a whole, properly functioning, contributing, productive child of Yours who moves forward in Your purpose for my life.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLNL49TFC_8&mode=related&search=
Your Word says that “the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groaning which cannot be uttered” (Romans 8:26). Lord, I realize I don’t know how to pray as I need to, nor as often as I want to, but I invite You, Holy Spirit, to pray through me. Help me in my weakness. Teach me the things I don’t know about You.
I am desperately aware of how much I need Your power to transform me and my circumstances. I don’t want to live an ineffective life. I want to live in the dynamic power of Your Spirit. I don’t want to be a spiritual underachiever. I want to be an overcomer. You paid a price for me so that I could be owned by You. Help me to live like it. You planed out a course for my life so that I could be defined by You. Help me to act like it. You made it possible for me to defeat my enemy. Help me not to forget it. You sent Your Holy Spirit so that I could live in power. Help me to fulfill that promise. You gave Your life for me because You loved me. Help me to do the same for You.
I put all my expectations in You, Lord. I repent of the times I have expected other people or other things to meet my needs when I should have been looking to You. I know that You are the only one who can complete me because You are everything I need. All that I have ever wanted in my life can be found in You. Help me to remember to live not in my own strength, but by the power of Your Spirit living in me. Forgive me for the times I have forgotten to do that. Enable me to grow in the things of Your kingdom so that I can become a whole, properly functioning, contributing, productive child of Yours who moves forward in Your purpose for my life.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLNL49TFC_8&mode=related&search=
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
My Father - Dress Up Well
After 1978 I suddenly realized that my dad was such a handsome man, he had very good taste of his clothes. He always dressed up well. Before 1978 you couldn't find anything with good quality or color for well-known reason in the whole country. He always took my mom to make good quality dress for her, unfortunately my mom hated to dress up. My dad was a civic engineer, but later on his career his work was more focusing on management and coordinating with different companies. He had a very successful career and earned great respect from different people at different companies. I think his well-dressed looking contributed a lot.
My Father - A Understanding Dad
When we were teenagers, my dad was trying so hard to understand our behaviors and our emotion. When we looked back my brothers and I always laughed. My dad read our books and magazines and tried to dress up like us.
One time my dad put my jacket and jean on himself (my dad was about the same size as I was when I was in high school) on weekend and went out with me for shopping. My mom asked him " Are you crazy ? dressing up like that ? " He asked me " how do I look ? " I thought it was cool and said " Looks good, why not ". So we went out and everybody looked at him with weired eyes. Later on when we talked about that with my dad, he told me that he was trying to feel how we felt so he could understand better. I know this sounds a little crazy for some parents but that was my dad which I admire him a lot about his unique personality. Now when I am writing this down I can't stop laughing.
One time my dad put my jacket and jean on himself (my dad was about the same size as I was when I was in high school) on weekend and went out with me for shopping. My mom asked him " Are you crazy ? dressing up like that ? " He asked me " how do I look ? " I thought it was cool and said " Looks good, why not ". So we went out and everybody looked at him with weired eyes. Later on when we talked about that with my dad, he told me that he was trying to feel how we felt so he could understand better. I know this sounds a little crazy for some parents but that was my dad which I admire him a lot about his unique personality. Now when I am writing this down I can't stop laughing.
My Father : Bring Joy All The Time
As I remembered my dad always made people around him happy. Whenever he came home , especially at dinner table, we always had pleasant things to talk. Later on I knew that whatever happened at his work, he always put his happy face before stepped into our home. I think he was a real man and had a big heart. He didn't want his parents or his kids feel his sorrow or suffering. So our family have a habit which whenever we get together we always talk a lot and laughing together nobody wants to sleep. Before I never appreciate that, but now I do because I know not every family has that precious time. Sometime when Tony was not happy at dinner table I missed that moment of my own family. I really appreciate my father did that for us.
My Father - 3
One thing I really appreciate about my parent, especially my dad was that he always gave us opportunities to speak up, even it sounded very silly. He always listened to us before he spoke.
He was a strict dad like most of his generation, but he was open-minded. Because of this, our home was always open to my friends from elementary school to college. All my friends liked to stay in my home, they knew that my parent would treat them like adults, they really enjoyed that moment. My mom would offer them a meal if either was lunch time or dinner time, my dad would like to talk to them, sometime joked with them, all my friends were so happy in my house. Maybe that's the reason I got a lots of friends since I was little.
On the other hand, my dad would correct them if he heard something not quite right. So some 'bad' guys were 'afraid' of my dad because his words would not be very easy to swollen.
My dad would not blame us whenever we made mistakes. He always tried to explain to us why it was wrong and focus on how to fix the problem. This is one thing I learned from him and try to use it when teaching Thomas. As parents, you correct your children's bad behaviors not themselves let your children know the consequences of mistakes and your children still feel being loved even you discipline them. So I don't believe punishment which may only decreases kid's self-confidence.
He was a strict dad like most of his generation, but he was open-minded. Because of this, our home was always open to my friends from elementary school to college. All my friends liked to stay in my home, they knew that my parent would treat them like adults, they really enjoyed that moment. My mom would offer them a meal if either was lunch time or dinner time, my dad would like to talk to them, sometime joked with them, all my friends were so happy in my house. Maybe that's the reason I got a lots of friends since I was little.
On the other hand, my dad would correct them if he heard something not quite right. So some 'bad' guys were 'afraid' of my dad because his words would not be very easy to swollen.
My dad would not blame us whenever we made mistakes. He always tried to explain to us why it was wrong and focus on how to fix the problem. This is one thing I learned from him and try to use it when teaching Thomas. As parents, you correct your children's bad behaviors not themselves let your children know the consequences of mistakes and your children still feel being loved even you discipline them. So I don't believe punishment which may only decreases kid's self-confidence.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Fear
Sunday night Thomas accidentally let his second loose tooth fall off - he bited pillow hard. The tooth fell off with lots of blood. I looked at it and it looked fine, just too early to be fell off. He was so scared and crying because he was afraid that all his teeth would fall off very soon. He cried and asked me why he always made mistakes with his sad eyes staring me. At that moment I thought he was so cute and for first time He was really scared something. For the first loose tooth he actually pull it off at school because he couldn't wait for tooth fairy coming during the night and got him a shinny coin.
Sick
Thomas is sick today , coughing with a high fever 100F, but he is still in good mood. He maybe overtired from weekend. His dad took him out for two days and so hot outside. Didn't eat well. On Sunday after they came back from zoo , they had a fight, both unpleasant. His dad acted like a child sometime. A friend of mine told me one time ' guy would automatically turn to the second child after their first one was born', i was laughing at it, but it's true , at least for us.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
You Raise Me Up
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
One of my favorite songs from Josh Groban. Here is the link:
http://ladynwavsone.com/raisemeup.html
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
One of my favorite songs from Josh Groban. Here is the link:
http://ladynwavsone.com/raisemeup.html
One More Day
One More Day
Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in Malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you
One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you
First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do, with one more day with you
Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day
This song was performed by Diamond Rio. I heard this song at radio station this afternoon and remembered that the first time I heard was about 10 years ago when I was in Tampa Bay , Flordia. Then I never forgot it since then. Wrote down this for memory of my father who passed away 10 years ago. It's a beautiful song and here is the link which plays this song:
http://www.ladaisey.com/onemore.html
Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in Malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you
One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you
First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do, with one more day with you
Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day
This song was performed by Diamond Rio. I heard this song at radio station this afternoon and remembered that the first time I heard was about 10 years ago when I was in Tampa Bay , Flordia. Then I never forgot it since then. Wrote down this for memory of my father who passed away 10 years ago. It's a beautiful song and here is the link which plays this song:
http://www.ladaisey.com/onemore.html
Friday, June 8, 2007
My Father - 2
Fathers' day is coming. I really want to write something about my dad. It's been more than 10 years since he was gone. In my mind I've never seen his being sick and he was always strong , powerful and charming, always outgoing and full of sense of humor. Most of time he liked a typical father at his generation, worked hard and spent no time with children, but for me he was so kind and a caring father. There were lots of time we had fun together. One thing always made my heart soft and warm when I thought about that. My dad had big beard. When I was little , especially in the winter, every night when he came back home after finished his work , it was already late - I was in the bed, he liked to put his cold face inside my blanket and tickled me and sometime woke me up. Sometime I felt his beard so sharp and felt hurt. For the first several months after I lost him, I always had the same dream that he came back home and put his cold face inside my blanket and let me feel his big beard and woke me up...all those dreams were so real and made me crying hard every time I woke up. I knew I was missing him so much and missing that feeling. When I told this story to Thomas , it really made him wonder what my dad looked like - Thomas told me he liked my dad's story.
First Phone Call From Thomas
Thomas made a phone call to me by himself for the first time. He asked me what's my phone number was the other day and he let me write it down on the paper and he repeated several times and put it into his pocket. And then I told him to memorize that number and could call me if he needs me. For the next several day he repeated that number to me every time he got home from school. Now he talked to me over the phone like a big kid and made me really proud. He is a big boy now.
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