Middle Age

Middle age for me it should be the starting point to enjoy family and life. But most of it, not true. I've seen lots of people around me , including myself, struggling at some point. Still it should not be the end of world.

Ping has been struggling all those year, from what I've seen , I think she is too ambitious. I consider she is my best friend since I got in the state. She treats me like her own sister too. We were roommate when I first arrived this country. She came here a year earlier than I did.

She is a hard worker, smart, and very generous. She helps lots of friends financially and spiritually. We all studied here first and then got job and then got family with children, I felt like we should enjoy our life... for me I always adjust my 'goal' and I think I should set my limit for material things, you can not force yourself work like a machine, especially being a mom. Somehow you have to sacrifice for your family and child. Ping disagreed with me about that.

Ping seems want to do thing perfectly. And she is trying to do perfectly both at work and home. I told her that it was impossible for me and I doubt if anybody could do that. I feel she is so stubborn. It's hard for her to change her mind even it's impossible. She always pushes herself beyond limit, I remind her all the time that don't do that to your own daughter.

Indeed, human is so insignificant in the huge universal. Our living year on earth is so short. Why we have to fight over those impossible things ? God created us as a purpose, everything good comes from Him, we have to rely on Him, not ourselves. We do the best we can, let God worries about Miracles and only Him made impossible be possible. So why worry about tomorrow ? Enjoy our life and be happy and grateful.